Since I got back from VayKay, I've been in sort of a "mood." I can't put my finger on a reason. I just know I feel strange. Maybe I'm having a midlife crisis. I did just have some surgery recently, maybe I'm just getting out the anesthesia. I'm gaining weight by the week, dateless, poor, and having second thoughts about my job.
I've seriously started looking for a new job. For the first time in my life, I'm not sure if I want to stay or go. Although, I may not have a choice because of this difficult woman I work with. She is a control junkie and I'm tired of dealing with it. I try not to obsess over her hurtful words, but it is difficult sometimes. With this "mood," it's almost impossible not to over think things.
I'm don't think I am depressed, I just think things are in flux and I don't know how to deal with it.
A good way to deal with it stress would be to have some sex. And dammit! there is nothing in the works to find a partner.
Looking forward to hanging out with some friends soon. As I've noted throughout this blog, I'm going to force myself to be a social butterfly. Two reasons: networking for a job and hopefully to meet someone new.
I have my fingers crossed (because I think that's all I can do at this point) for some good karma.
Patience -- I has it.
Back to working out like a dog and eating like a bird. Fun! <
Kissing the opal,
~Zb
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